The Real & Free You vs the Programmed & Caged You

​This Article is an excerpt from my (mostly unedited) upcoming, comprehensive book - that includes all of the Rites of Passage to reclaim, restore and remember your Sacred, True Self - Body, Mind & Soul. The book also explores and explains the overlays and templating of 'The World' that have kept people constrained, confined, limited and with a false sense of self - most often feeling less-than, unworthy, incomplete, confused and somehow 'wrong'. I'm sharing this now, because I think you have the right to know some of the 'external' causes of the sense of self you may identify as, which may not be the real 'you'.

​Here I explain how Identity is Key and Core to the nature of your Awakening or feeling caged...

"There’s a YOU that is Real & True underneath, before, beyond & in-between all of the false templating, programming, projections, imprinting & intrusions of others, the false paradigm & the lie of hierarchical worth, value & validity.
The relentless & immersive environment of the energy that created the limiting, finite & false paradigm, leads you to believe that you are the personality you’ve been cajoled, sculpted, modified & manipulated into being.

This ‘personality’, sense of self, way of being & thinking & feeling, becomes your identity to yourself & the world. But it is not the True You – even though, hopefully, you’ve managed to maintain some of your Real Essence within all of that noise.
You become attached to ‘who you think you are’ & trained to believe it’s all you are. The ‘ego,’ in this understanding, is the false sense of self you were entrained, programmed & templated into resonating as. This ego, persona, sense of self, identity or personality – is the part of people that is easily controlled by the elaborate energy of the false hierarchy & paradigm.

The sense of self that you were trained to be is the most susceptible aspect of you – because it’s not the Sacred part of you. The Sacred You is Substantial, Strong & Sourced. It’s your Original Soul, your Organic Body, your Infinite & Eternal Awareness. The Sacred Whole True You is unf*#&withable.

The limited, finite & programmed ‘you’ is subject to the whims of everything - from the collective consciousness (the energy created and maintained by the species to hold its own flimsy & fickle versions of the patterns & templates of the false hierarchy), to the moods & demands of the people in your life & your own reactivity.

While it is your right and (a part of your) role to look at the identity you were trained to be; and to question, contemplate, consider, release and remove all of the aspects that aren’t in resonance with the Real You; that personality, sense of self, ego persona, is not inherently Who You Are, nor was it only created by you.

This is the missing part of the mix, of the jigsaw puzzle, of the psychology and Spiritual information shared at the moment. This misidentification as that personality & self – the one templated, trained, expected, crafted, woven by everything and everyone around you, including you (often as coping mechanisms because of your environment & experiences) – and the subsequent attachment to that sense of self, is such an issue, because it either puts all the onus on you for creating that personality, or it removes all of your True Power & Presence as the Sacred Soul You Are.

Identifying solely as the mind, patterns, enmeshments, roles, ways, thoughts & beliefs of that susceptible subconscious self, stops you from Identifying as your Sacred Soul Self. Now, you may be amazingly astute, and already expressing and identifying as your Organic Body & Brain, your Original Consciousness & Mind, your Infinite & Eternal Soul – or have that Identity as the majority of your sense of self. That is awesome.

You might be aware of 20% of you being that – excellent. Perhaps it’s 1%. However much you truly see yourself – and feel yourself – as your Organic, Original, Oneness Self, you ARE probably aware that there is a part of you that’s Sacred, and a part that’s ‘off.’ That’s why you’re here, yes?

The Journey, the Path, of Awakening, Ascension & Alignment, is the Remembrance, Reclamation, Restoration of that Real You; & the recognition, release & removal of all of the layers of the false, limited, finite identification.
I have staggered, crawled, sunk, dropped, fallen, looped, resisted, u-turned, walked, swum, dived deep, danced, trekked, climbed, zoomed, flown along this Path. It was wretched, challenging, lonely, tragic, profane, difficult, impossible, magnificent, gorgeous, beautiful, glorious, flowing, sweet, lovely, contradictory, confusing, wild, outrageous, stupid, serious, successful, Sacred.

It has been bloody awful and exquisitely ecstatic. But why? WTAF has made it so incredibly both? It was as simple as misidentifying as the susceptible aspects that were needing to be released – because that feels a whole lot like destruction, danger, desolation & death.

I just didn’t know that those parts weren’t the real me. What is commonly called, “The Dark Night of the Soul,” is NOT dark to your Soul. It’s your Soul’s chance - & Your True Body & Mind - to shine through. It is very dark to the sense of self that identifies as the part leaving, falling away, dying.

To the extent that you still identify as that personality – the entrained, curated, controlled & caged personality – you suffer it falling away. It is essential that you are provided with the information, steps, processes, practices, experiential rituals, activations, integrations & ceremonies – to Reclaim the correlated Aspect of Your True Self, at the same step, time, space, as that which you’re releasing.

As you work towards understanding the energy, dynamics & limitations of the imprinted & programmed ways of being that you might have been expressing, or identifying, as – so that you can consider releasing them – you deserve & require the same understanding & exploration of the energy, dynamics & freedom of the True You hidden underneath that aspect.

By having something True, Real & Sacred to expand into, the release of the part that hid that True You feels less threatening and traumatic. But please understand that I am not talking about real losses here. There are real physical, emotional, energetic and psychological events and experiences that deserve your time, effort, grieving processes, & appropriate professional support around and through.

I am not dissing the reality of either those circumstances, nor the effect of facing and dealing with any and all misidentification. Your feelings matter, regardless of their cause – and ignoring them or stifling them doesn’t work. Having a real, safe, private space – with adequate support – to feel your feelings and emotions is essential.

If you’ve been caged, hijacked, gaslit, controlled, manipulated, abused, shamed, made to feel less-than, humiliated, unworthy, wrong, devalued, invalid, stupid, silly – you will have feelings about that – genuine, real, strong feelings. You need a non-destructive and safe way and place to process, feel, heal and deal with all of them.

If you have been told to put others first your whole life, the last thing you need at this juncture is to continue to dismiss and invalidate any part of you. If it is inherently unsafe or impossible for you to inhabit your own body or mind - viscerally - because of traumas, unresolved issues, serious experiences – you deserve complete compassion, care, support, love, acceptance, patience, time, space & professional assistance, to contend with those things.

Knowing you’re a Sacred, Infinite, Eternal, Organic, Soul & Self does NOT equate to ignoring your previous experiences or sense of self – it is about honouring yourself enough to validate all of yourself – the Sacred aspects & the caged aspects. Treat ALL of you like you would your child at your best. But also be willing to see the lies and limitations you have been led to believe – even in your thought processes, ways of feeling, perspective, assumptions, & the expectations of others of you.

There are overlays of patterning in this world – and some have been woven into your being. So – as I was saying – any hierarchical thoughts, feelings, beliefs – of either worth-less or superior energies – are false. They belong to the false paradigm, which was based on a false premise.

Whether someone else is trying to force-feed you this ‘Master & Servant’ template, or you’re doing it to yourself, it’s false. So, don’t trust any internal or external voices or experiences or energies that tell you otherwise.

Are there aspects of you that you need to take full ownership of, in order to atone and heal them? Yes. Can you just point the finger at everyone and anyone else and blame them for every shitty thing that’s happened in your life? No. Sorry! But there is an enormous sense of relief – as well as grief and rage and disillusionment – when you realise that not all of your ‘wrong’ bits are inherent to who you are, nor initially caused by you.

Your Organic Body, Mind and Soul are magnificent, wonderful, YOURS. FYI – you’re AWESOME! And, there’s a lot of stuff and fluff that isn’t really you – not the Real You, so it’s okay to at some point process it, heal its effects, and release it from your sense of self.

This is not about bypassing, disassociation, dissociation, blaming, shaming or removing responsibility for your behaviour or decisions. This is about your right to freedom, self-expression, true identity and your Sacredness. You’ll still be ‘human’ along the Path, but you can have a Guide, a Map, an internal Compass, that shows you the way up and out of the fog, and into your True Self.

It makes it make sense. It can help you be prepared. It provides markers along the path. It shines a Light on the Truth and the false. It keeps you on track – YOUR track to remembrance, reclamation & restoration.

The book that I'm writing is a comprehensive Map through the Rites of Passage to Awakening, Ascending & Aligning to your True Body, Mind & Soul. Each Stage, Step, Initiation, is a journey of realisation, release & reclamation.

Perhaps you won’t have to stumble, crawl, fall, U-turn, loop your way to Remembrance. That is most certainly my hope – it’s the reason I’m writing it. You have a right to be Free and to uncage yourself from the confines and constrictions of impossible standards and expectations, from imprints and intrusive programming, from any sense of feeling less, unworthy, invalid."
 
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In Light,
Donna Nelson

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